Man I just feel so, feel so lost Dark days, cold nights Bloody tears, from lost fights Demeaning times, I hate life Cut out my heart, like a surgical knife Can I be stitched back together, makes things whole in me? Or remain a carcass for the whole world to see? What can I do? Lord help me please I’m falling to the floor, down on bended knees I can not lie, I wanna die, homie I’m over this Screaming at the sky, while I’m high waving my fist The way the world done turned on me has got me really And if I slit my wrists, would I even be missed? God I’ve cried in pain to you about a thousand times You promised if I’m lost, peace of mind is mine to find But can I be redeemed? Can I even come to you? When I spent these years in mercy fearing on the run from you God save me Prayin for the day that the good lord saves my soul Raise me up til I'm on my feet again I'm on my knees Weak Prayin for the day that the good lord brings me Redemption Dark days, cold nights, Depressed state, I've lost sight Shattered dreams, I hate life Why always me? it's not right Sitting here wondering what is wrong with me? All these evil thoughts drowning, I can no longer see What can I do? Lord help me please I fall down to the floor, down on bended knees Lord I am struggling, these demons suffocate & torment my mind They attack all my weakness, how can I beat this? please help me find An answer, Lord give me strength All this mess I can't comprehend I try keeping it real, keep my head up and I try to conceal Feel nobody cares, so I tend to not share and just hide how I feel Release all my tension, on verses I spill on my pad & my pen And step in the booth, to relieve my depression and help start again Screaming out loud, This is my therapy Every kick and snare and note to me is so heavenly It is my remedy, my tendencies feed enemies My inner me is killing and unfulfilling my legacy Uh, What should I do next? I need redemption, exemption to push on through this Pursue with new steps, goals to help improvement raise my head to the sky & pray overcome excuses The truth is, my mind is a real nuisance Visions and nightmares, control the way I do things Tormented since a young kid, you could call it stupid Stuck under demons thumb prints, mind games to make me foolish my mind’s my biggest weakness the enemy took advantage Sleeping at night I couldn't manage, he'd enforce his damage I'd Wake with eyes staring back at me, it’s insanity But the name of Jesus Christ, helped me rise above the agony Lord save me Prayin for the day that the good lord saves my soul Raise me up til I'm on my feet again I'm on my knees Weak Prayin for the day that the good lord brings me Redemption Lord help me, tell me where to go from here I need some answers, no longer can I live in fear No weapon formed against me, shall enslave me I pray for redemption, crying Lord please save me Please save me Prayin for the day that the good lord saves my soul Raise me up til I'm on my feet again I'm on my knees Weak Prayin for the day that the good lord brings me Redemption Look, i’m saying my prayers you hearing my cries i need a reply don’t need a surprise of anything everyone telling me lies i’m buried in enemies energy died the memories tented so let me disguise the enemy recipe dry i’m coming from enemy lines i been so ahead of my time take me instead of my lines love me despite of my crimes help me i’m fighting the odds and lately my line is declined and lately my tribe hit divide it’s crazy that i didn’t cry maybe i did maybe i tried maybe i’ll live maybe i’ll die maybe i did it for reasons that i can’t express i’ve been depressed, i been with God i need redemption i been redeemed it’s still regime till the end of it all the standard we setting came after developing falls answer whenever he call i’m ready to build i’m ready to heal this medicine really been helping for real don’t worry i’m focused no percies for lil no bull id rather let hennessy spill. i know that my tendency ill i know that the remedy killed the old me slowly im running up enemies hills this road is lonely. i know who’ could never be real i know that my legacy lives. those who know me those who knew me they can not ever begin to notice how better he is. bet on me then. Yeah came out the ashes. had multiple crashes life has been evil now look at it backwards remember us fasting. and look at us now we still set the standard. just give up the crown i’m holding it down this been for gemeyl i pray and i smile i waited awhile if God is the judge i’m on with a trial if God in control the victory’ now Prayin for the day that the good lord saves my soul Raise me up til I'm on my feet again I'm on my knees Weak Prayin for the day that the good lord brings me Redemption
Songwriter and producer CRFT celebrates his spirituality and family on this thoughtful debut LP, featuring Blu, nobigdyl, and more. Bandcamp New & Notable May 10, 2022